Took a look at my blog and yes, it has been gathering virtual cobwebs and cyber dust. I’m just so out of it…the past few months have seen a huge displacement occurring in my life, as if someone took a huge boulder and hurled it into my comfortable pond of existence. It was something that had to happen and had to be done. I’m more at ease now that certain things have been taken care of, but some hurtful residue has remained.
In a way life is funny and strange. You’re coasting along, thinking you’re in complete control and then…BAM!! It hits you and you realize that you relinquished control a long time ago, without even knowing or admitting it. I’ve made my share of mistakes in the past, just like everyone else, but sometimes I tend to ignore it. To forget. To imagine that no, those mistakes never happened. Bad move.
Then I received this text message from someone I hadn’t met in ages:
Whatever comes, accept it. Everything that happens happens for the good. A positive mind turns it into a blessing. This will dawn upon you later.
I hate to use the D-word, but I’ve been feeling depressed on and off. Fortunately it has been mild so far, not to the point where my whole system shuts down, whether I like it or not. My appetite’s still there, I manage to do my work, etc. Beyond that the depression tends to rear its ugly head at me from time to time. My blogging has faltered, just because I couldn’t muster myself to write—my head refuses to let me focus and I lose my thoughts. So it has been a difficult past few months.
Some good has come out of all this, though. I’ve begun to appreciate the soothing power of friendship and I’d like to thank all my friends who have given me an emotional shoulder of support to lean on. I have to give time time. And continue to trust in the Lord that everything will turn out alright as and when He sees fit.
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